island princess

and so the Barbie show ended last Sunday.
here are the pictures!

indeed, this is where i wanna be.

it's been 25months.
been feeling nothing,
but love.

be the motivator, not indicator

today we met this really queer man.
which made him interestingly...deep.
inspiring poetry indeed.
he asked us each to give him a question.
and so i asked
"is deception necessary?"

and there he sat, scribbling.

Deception
when you live,

even if you're the most powerful,

you can be destroyed.

by others,

by your own mistakes.

when you want to survive,

not only you need to tally forces from others.

you need to protect yourself from them.
you may even deceive others to become your prey.

this is necessary for survival but this is also the window to those you discern.

we as living cannot base on a perfect world.

we have to discern to protect.

to sharpen, to survive.

and it may sound like darkness.

it is in this darkness that you discern light and cherish so.

jaded.

i learnt something about friendships,

forgiveness and redemption.

some had learned the hardest lesson of all.

that life is always fragile.

and very often, unfair.

isn't it funny?

i thought you were a friend. my friend.
i guess true friends don't gossip about each other,
behind their backs.
if there's anything you're unhappy about,
say it to my face.

let's just say,

you should be treated as an acquaintance instead.

almost pretending.

there is much to be afraid of in this world.

but what we fear,

has nothing to do with gruesome masks, plastic spiders,or life-like monsters.

it's the thoughts in our head,

that terrify us the most.

what if she comes to regret her decision?

what if he is unhappy?

what if the chance for love has pass forever?

how do we conquer these thoughts?

we start reminding ourselves,

what does not kill us,

only makes us stronger.